There is no denying that this eclipse season has shaken me to my core.
Even after years of conscious and unconscious healing, unfolding, unraveling and undoing learned behaviors and patterns - I still find myself on the floor in tears, truthfully, fearful.
But that’s okay.
This time around I was available to act as my own guide through what felt like swimming for my life in a choppy and vengeful ocean.
Patterns, old and new, came forward over the past two weeks. Patterns and hurt feelings linked to trauma that I have spent years unfolding and filling with light.
A big lesson I have learned is that no amount of avoidance or escapism will push painful memories away. The only way to find relief is to sit with your pain and feel it. As if it is another soul sitting in front of you, and the two of you are connected, sitting across from one another in silence. When you reach out to what has been hurting and say aloud, “I see you” you offer a soft lovingness in place of it’s heaviness. You begin to feel lightness, freedom, softness.
Don’t be ashamed of feeling what you are feeling - FEEL it. Once you acknowledge that it’s safe for you to be radically honest with yourself (of all people), surrendering these patterns - self sabotage, escapism, avoidance, over protection - I won’t lie and say surrendering these things are easy. There will be tears.
But it feels like this all encompassing hand of endless support reaches down and fills those spaces with light and reminds you that you are a spirit, living here to experience life. To experience attachment and nonattachment. To experience grief, loss, aloneness and escapism as well as joy, happiness, togetherness, and reality.
What have you learned about yourself these past few days? What have you known but finally accepted within your heart? What did you sit with? Who did you open your heart to and who/what have you said goodbye to?
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